This entry was written by Jaime Rossano. Jaime was diagnosed with 2B invasive ductal carcinoma breast cancer. Jaime is a college student pursuing a degree in Humanities and Social Science. Every other Friday, Jaime will share a blog entry about her breast cancer experience. This year-long blog series is in honor of LBBC’s 20th anniversary.
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Well, I guess you can say “it’s October.” When October approaches, I find myself consumed with many worries and emotions. In the past, when October would come around I would think of how much I miss my grandmom and how her birthday was at the end of October. I would remember the times we had shared together. A few years ago I found a birthday card for her and just put it in a box.
This October seems to be a little different, although I miss my grandmother dearly, I have been thinking so much about this time last year. October 29, 2010 was when I found out I had breast cancer. This October, although I am currently cancer free, brings out many thoughts of how I actually made it this far.
Just a year ago, I was drowning in my own tears and was desperate for an answer of why this is happening to me. Just a year ago, I was sitting in my doctor’s office figuring out my plan of action for survival. Just a year ago, I was lost, confused and so scared of what challenges I was going to have to face. Just a year ago, I realized how much my family meant to me but I was always afraid to share “the news.” Just a year ago, I didn’t know where I was going to be in the future.
It’s funny, well not really funny, but I always doubted myself. I actually made it through my surgery, chemotherapy and radiation. I did it! I have had many struggles and challenges along the way and needless to say they are not over with yet but amazingly I got through it.
It’s hard now-a-days because I feel like I almost put in the back of my mind what I went through because life has returned to the normal “school, work, living-not-fighting anymore.”
I know some people rather not use the word ‘fighting” cancer but for me, I was. I was fighting myself, I was fighting my body, I was fighting to make it through every day. I still feel like I am fighting because of all the little bumps in the road that I have had. I think I will always be fighting making sure this disease doesn’t come back to kill me. I have doctors’ appointments so regularly sometimes that I think they should give me an ez-pass to jump in line.
Not only does October have and important meaning to me but also, October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I have to say I have my box of tissues ready for all the commercials about self-breast-examinations and screening. Some are sad, some are cheerful, some I will relate to because it’s what I went through.
I am also looking forward to the new move coming out 50/50. At first, I was not too thrilled that they actually made a movie about this awful disease. But then I realized that the humor reflected in the movie was the only way I got through some of my treatments. My mom reminded me of that one.
A few months ago I contacted the office of Healthy Campus Initiatives at Rowan University to see if there was any way I would be able to share my story. I am so excited to share that my story is going to be featured in Rowan’s Student Health 101 on-line magazine for October and I will be speaking on October 11th at Rowan University during a breast cancer awareness luncheon.
Not only is October bringing back memories, but this October, I am making memories.
If you live in the Philadelphia region, make a memory by joining Living Beyond Breast Cancer as we kick off Breast Cancer Awareness Month by hosting our annual fall conference, News You Can Use: Breast Cancer Updates for Living Well, tomorrow, Oct. 1st. Fee waivers are available at-the-door and walk-ins are welcomed.